Congratulations.

Thanks, Facebook. We don’t get to express ourselves anymore because nobody blogs anymore or cares about other’s blogs. We’re all maybe a bit too focused on how to make everyone know what amazing thing we’re doing, what baller lifestyle we have, and how fucking pretty we are. Well, fuckeetall! I need to write. I need to open up my mind more than mere little snippets of everyone else’s lives.

Focus on yourself and everything else will fall into place. Isn’t that supposed to lead to a fucking happy, carefree, and meaningful life? Well, kinda yeah. Excuse my language, but maybe I’m a little bitter. Sometime in the past few years I stopped focusing on myself. I didn’t “profitez!” anymore. I can’t dwell on the past,  though, so I’m gonna just make it better from now on. You can’t just please everyone else in the world. You need to have some selfishness. Not gloating or boasting. Your life is yours. If you end up never happy, well, that’s just stupid and shitty.

This blog is to record my mental health during my little journey in the next year. Or two. Or whatever. Because I’ll be on my way to making my life better. I’m going to begin studying for my AREs. That’s the Architect Registration Examinations! The first incentive to put myself through them is that I’ll probably get paid more. When you don’t have to worry about bills, rent, and loans every month you kiiinda worry less. More importantly is that I’ll become more productive at work. I’ll be more useful, and when people feel like they contribute, they don’t feel like a piece of shit burden on others. So. Yes. That is important. Lastly, I’ll have way more freedom in what I want to do in the future. Architecture thesis–I’m comin’ for ya!

Apologies in advance for all the pessimistic, Debbie Downer shit (and cursing). It’s gonna be like that for a while. But I’ll get better. I always do.

Man, shitty first post.