Yearning for a Trader of Immunity

I have a corneal ulcer on my eye. It’s a small hole on the lens, slightly off to the top so not in front of the pupil. The cornea is able to heal itself, but it needs some help with antibiotic drops. Left untreated, corneal ulcers can lead to permanent scarring (or loss of the eye, but that’s if it’s really bad).

I might also have a bladder/kidney infection. Who knows. It has its own mind. Last night I felt the left side kind of scrunch up and it hurt for a second. It was really weird. I emailed my urologist about it. I already went in for a urine test Monday morning, but it takes about 48 hours to get results.

Since I’m turning 26 next month, I applied for health care. Yayyy. After looking at all the options I had, it pretty much made sense to get a platinum plan. It’s a better move for me to stick with Kaiser because they already have all my records and can easily look back. It got tiring going to the health center at Cal Poly and explaining to every new doctor about my kidney. Anyway, Kaiser’s platinum plan is going to cost almost as much as my car payment.

Money, oh money. I hate you. You stink. I wish I could wash you away in the sink. I’m never expecting a birthday/holiday present ever again. Nor do I want one. Save your money.

Surprisingly, I haven’t had an episode with my precordial catch syndrome in a while–maybe a couple or few months! In lieu of sharp pains in my chest, though, are frequent nightmares having to do with death. There’s always a lot of death and blood. My muscles and my left eye have been twitching. I have heart palpitations as well.

It has been too stressful lately to do any studying. I just want to relax when I go home. Or climb.

Things could be better. Things could be worse. Today is not a good writing day. I apologize.